Every couple years or so, I tend to go insane a bit Barely keeping track of minor details in the main events Soon enough, I might just lose it Got some talent, need to prove it How's a dude that's by himself and unknown gonna start a movement? I move magically between cool and insanity Give this dude a pen and he'll be quick to create a masterpiece Tooting on my own horn I purchased at a pawn shop Mountain climb against the avalanche until I'm on top Not much of a yes man, I'm too busy asking why not? Dedicated most my life to give vision to blind spots Used to spend a lot of time wandering, wondering Then I realized you can't make moves constantly stumbling When I lost my best friend, it was honestly humbling Tried to stand tall on quicksand and rocks that were crumbling I was underneath the impression that people get better It all collapsed when he relapsed and he left us forever But I'm the type of dude that doesn't let nothing affect me, right? Ever since it happened, I've been drinking almost every night That was years ago, it's crazy how some things just stick with you The planet keeps spinning, there's some shit you gotta get through I wish that I was big enough to say look at me now But I'm no one and I'm nowhere and this empty room's my crowd I'll keep talking to these walls until the words knock em down Walk around for long enough, them horns are gonna sound Won't stop until it stops... When the planet floods, hopefully I'm watching from the top Won't stop until it stops... I'll be jumping off the ledge whether I'm ready to or not Every couple years or so, I tend to go insane a bit Barely keeping track of what month, week, or day it is Soon enough, I might just find it Day by day, I get reminded That the ink is running out on this old pen I sign the times with I find silence only when I'm in completely seclusion Started this shit out of boredom, now it's used for self improvement I'd start a revolution if I thought it'd make a difference But human beings repeat history's inane existence I start to change and shift it, if it isn't right for me All it takes is one drum the kick, the sparks ignite in me Righteously, I write until the light gets too bright see Always working, and if y'all deserve it, then it might release Might increase the fanbase if I just went outside more often Too much on my mind for now, so that is not a valid option Not really one for talking, rather write it down and rap it Always been inside of me, just had to find it then extract it Analyze it. Overthink it though, it's over quick Put your all in it, go hard as fuck or really don't commit Won't submit to all this self doubt, but it's kinda constant Pretty sure the walls are talking about me every time I walk in It feels impossible, tripping over obstacles Studied my mistakes on game tape, that shit's unwatchable Turn it off and move along, build upon whatever's left Every night, day dreaming, feeling like I've never slept

Flawlessly bounce from one failure to another Walk aimlessly until every inch is covered Started getting dizzy from the circles I've been sprinting in Every time I stop, the walls close on what I sit within I keep it moving at a rapid pace What I think I got is this illusion that evaporates Every time I reach... So far yet so close Poke holes into the side and see how long the boat floats Sink or swim like drown or tread water Stay alive and hope some solid ground is what it offers Feet don't falter, just take me where I'm supposed to be I've worn so many different faces, I don't even notice me Been over thinking everything I ever thought Like, can I find the facts in the fables I've been taught Wasting all this time in the moments that I bought Leave it all behind and try to gain from what you've lost And I can feel myself slowly disappearing Drowning out my own voice in everything I'm hearing Dreaming all the time but the truth is interfering Holding what I need but I want is too endearing Feel myself slowly disappearing Drowning out my own voice in everything I'm hearing Dreaming all the time but the truth is interfering Holding what I need but what I want is what I'm fearing Feeling like I'm never gonna satisfy my soul Haunted by the many nights I know I lost control Guided by the dimming lights that may not lead to gold Here I go... Here I go And I can see it shining in the distance, fading like its my religion When seeing friends die from overdoses of addictions I tend to mention it in everything I write It just pops up like his face vividly at night I can't help it.... Drowning in the tears that I've seen To fight the source of it, I knew I had to swim it upstream And I ain't seen a placid pond in a minute Troubled waters in the lake of fire, swim it til it's finished A thirst that nothing quenches... I cringe at what I've let myself become A con artist with some karma that I can't out run A constant contradiction singing karaoke In this overcrowded dive bar where no one knows me The microphone is unplugged so ain't nobody hearing me Still I'm singing love songs until I might appear at ease But there's a point when you gotta pull the plug and let it rest And let the soul leap from out the flesh... And I can feel myself slowly disappearing Drowning out my own voice in everything I'm hearing Dreaming all the time, but the truth is interfering Holding what I need, but what I want is too endearing Feel myself slowly disappearing Drowning out my own voice in everything I'm hearing Dreaming all the time, but the truth is interfering Holding what I need, but what I want is what I'm fearing Feeling like I'm never gonna satisfy my soul Haunted by the many nights I know I lost control Guided by the dimming lights that may not lead to gold Let it go... Let it go

I took a picture of my former self, smiled before I tore it up Threw a fist right through a mirror, felt some sort of sordid rush Writing down my every thought, lately can't record enough Close the door and lock me in, every window boarded shut Sort of stuck, pushing through For all the days I couldn't move All this work that's getting done, I swear to God, I shouldn't lose Loose ends got me tripping like shoe laces untied Make em meet and form a triple knot that doesn't unwind I wish that I could cut the chord from every single anchor But some moments make you stop, and those you need to savor I see a different face in every word I've written down Using those for stepping stones to climb until I'm getting out And I don't wanna let nobody that I know down... thought that I could do something amazing with it See the nothing in the back of me and everything in front... Who I was and who I am remain conflicted I stay indifferent to the fact that I've been falling since I woke up Knowing if I hit it, then that rock bottom won't budge No rush, time was running out before I took a breath Loyal to a fault, stood and fought, instead,I should've left I've studied everything, from where I've been, to where I'm at, to where I'm going Vivid epiphanies in drunken nights and sober mornings I saw myself for the first time and almost lost it All my imperfections on full display, and made me nauseous Instead of running, I started punching the clock in In hopes to build something substantial that won't be forgotten Time and time again, I tell myself that it's worth it But there's been all these empty days I felt so far from a purpose Driving hearses from churches just made my nervousness worsen Cursing serpents in verses to lift my personal burdens I keep burning this oil at almost every midnight Just writing songs about my wrongs, hoping that I can get right And right around the millionth time I almost gave up and ran I turned the page and noticed how another story began So this is dedicated to a night that feels like it might never end Odds are it's gonna finish right when I get settled in And I don't wanna let nobody that I know down... Always thought that I could do something amazing with it See the nothing in the back of me and everything in front... Who I was and who I am remain conflicted I stay and indifferent to the fact that I've been falling since I woke up Knowing if I hit it, then that rock bottom won't budge No rush, all that I've been given is getting stripped away Here for good, I'm sure I'd take it with me if I didn't stay

Discontent in my gut Every door has been shut Very few that I trust Crush anything I touch When the brain says, "give up" And the heart says, "get up" But the body feels so stuck I don't really know how to start this Always feel that, but I stand and I'm walking regardless In the land of the heartless Gotta stay guarded, got a can full of that garbage And my liver lately's been liquor soaked, so far away and not getting close Been lost on a whole bunch of different roads Been drunk for like four days in a row It's too much... I ain't really one for the turn up Get me in a crowd and my insides burn up Tried to go to school but I didn't really learn much So I dropped out, so in turn, I don't earn much Always been a little different, disinterested in what they say that I should be Really took a long time for me to stop listening until I understood me What I could be, what can be If I stay the course and not stress on a plan B On a pitch black night with my eyes closed shut, til the sun came up and I ran free And it felt so right... And it felt so right Weightlessness that I held so tight Taking me from the Hell where I dwell most nights I don't wanna feel like that again Tryna find me, I don't wanna be them Tryna find God but he doesn't respond so it makes sense why every track's a hymn Asking every single question that I've been thinking since I was a child Looking up always to find my calling, then I get anxious and then I run wild I've been wasting away ever since I was young In pure disgust seeing what I've become Choked on smoke, sacrificed my lungs So the shadows chasing me, I can't outrun Looking over my shoulder, always so nervous, I don't even know why All I know is the moment's passing me and I try to hold it, but it floats by It's a lot to take, I can't concentrate Got pieces to fit, got locks to break Locked away in this place alone, and the solitude has got a lot to say Silence... All that I'm searching for A sound that I have not heard before Need to find that solid ground like every ocean deserves a shore Discontent in my gut Every door has been shut Very few that I trust Crush anything I touch When the brain says, "give up" But the heart says, "get up" And the body feels so stuck